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- akuma. 悪魔☆
04 December 2010 @ 01:16 am
From now and on, my journal will be friends only. Just a question of privacity. Ask me if you want to be added.
- akuma. 悪魔☆
22 August 2010 @ 01:17 pm

- Because my life is meaningless without you. You're the only one who can make me smile, you're the one who makes my heart feel warmed. I just love you.

Don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Current Music: I don't wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith
- akuma. 悪魔☆
20 August 2010 @ 01:25 am
Do you remember when everything was perfect?
Everything was perfect because i had you with me. And now? What we got?

About long days i was thinking about you... Been a long time since that day, right? Do you still remember all the promises?
I can remember all the feelings shattered in that morning... I was afraid to hurt you, but, when the lies became truth, i had to put an end to my torture.
The time passes and our memories aren't erased... All i want most to forget, comes up when the details reminds me yours gestures.
It was a long way... And, all my wishes were lost... Only you know my truth, only you know what i really wanted.

Sorry if i made you cry...

I miss you, dearest.
"I will crying in the rain ano sora no mukou sukui wo motome..."
- Bya, i still remembering... ♥
Current Music: Forsaken - DeathGaze
- akuma. 悪魔☆
13 August 2010 @ 12:36 am
(...) is how i'm feeling now. Lost in the darkness way of the choices.

I just wonder me... why its so sad?~

This confusion is killing me... </3

All your words are able to makes me smile and to break my heart...

Say goodbye, just goodbye
Without fear of getting hurt, goodbye
Let's throw out all the feelings
We can't hold in our hands
Current Music: GoodBye - hide
- akuma. 悪魔☆
13 August 2010 @ 12:08 am
(...) I want to throw up everything just to see what happens... Sometimes i want to hurt you, just to see if you really cares about me... If you really loves me.

Everyday, everytime, i'm thinking of you, ever when i'm far... Even when you're silent...
Sometimes you're away, yet you're here, by my side. I can't understand... This all don't have the same meaning to me and to you, i'm sure... So... Why dont you finish this?

Sometimes i want to die instead of live this torture. 

[The value of things is not the time they last, but the intensity with which they occur. Therefore, there are unforgettable moments, inexplicable things and incomparable people]
- akuma. 悪魔☆
12 August 2010 @ 12:34 am
After that, I find myself thinking about how everything was so sudden ... I cant say i'm sorry, now ... But i know, that day will come, and i will sorely regret everything.

You were on my side, always, regardless of how I was with you...

I dont know what happen with me, i dont know how i could say all those things to you... Things that hurted you...

And, how can I forget you? I cant. You stay in my mind always, even if i have a 'beloved person' with me, i'll not forget you.

"We make choices all the time, the more mature and aware we become, the better and smarter are our choices."
I saw this sentence, and because of this i decided to write this all. And, yeah... Life consists of choices, and.. i made my choices, mature or not, i'll pay for this.

I did it, I was stupid, I was incoherent ... But I still love you. I said it would not change easily, love doesn't fades away so suddenly.

And though my heart cries to have it all right back, even if my only desire now is to drop everything just to have those feelings right back ... I wont do.

You're better off without me, I need not and do not want to cause suffering again.

So... I'm sorry...

"Anata ga koishikute koishikute
Kore ijoo dooshiyoomo nakute
Anata ga koishikute koishikute
Zutto zutto daisukidayou"
Current Music: Ai Otsuka - Daisuki da yo